I just told my husband that I am questioning my love for him. Codependency or love?

We've been married for less than two years. Together for 6. The whole time it feels like he has taken care of ME. Not we have taken care of each other. I come from a broken home. Lots of drinking and neglectful mother. I soon took up the drinking bit. Became a depressed attention seeking teenager. I'm still attention seeking just older and not nearly so dramatic about my depression. Anyway I come from a lot of abuse and neglect. Rape being the biggest deal I guess. When I met my now husband I quickly moved to his parents house with him. Him and his family took care of me. We both left and went to different colleges. Couldn't stand being apart and moved into an apartment together. Quit school together. got jobs. Started talking about making our own family. Drank a lot. I beat him up I called the cops on him, I slept with other men. one of them his best friend from high school. I use him up and seems like he let's me. I am in a program of recovery and have been in and out for 2 years. I am looking at myself so much lately... How do I know if there is any real love there or if it's purely a co dependent relationship?