Why Do I Miss My Neglectful Ex?

It wasn't always like this, in the beginning he made me feel like the most special girl in the world. I enjoyed every moment with him and he really was my everything. I lost my virginity to him... and I felt like it was the perfect person to give it to. Than in the last 1-2 month(s) like right before graduation, he just changed. At first I can say I may have been just a little too needy/clingy. I saw it from his view and started giving him space, like I should've. But than he just like went completely off the map. In the mornings I didn't see him, not between classes, he didn't give me a ride home, he didn't walk me to my bus, we didn't text for 2 weeks (we did for 2 days for about 10 minutes). He said he was busy with school, so I even did his government homework, and mine. We hadn't talked on the phone in about a month. After we graduated, we didn't even say anything to each other until the next day. Than when I told him I wanted to talk on the phone that night he said he couldn't. So the next day I told him I couldn't handle him being so far away and told him we have to fix it or I need to go ahead and move on. He insisted that we be friends but it really hurt me too much to even do that. I was really in love with him... and it hurts to not have him in my life either... I don't even know why I miss him when he didn't even care about our relationship.